on letting go

Lately I’ve been really struggling with letting it all go. Putting it all in God’s hands.

My entire life I have needed to feel in control. How does someone like that let go?

Worry and fear is a constant burden in my life. I convince myself that I can put it in God’s hands without fully letting go, but I know I’m fooling myself. Doing that means I am still trying to be in control and what’s the point in that?

I’m tired.

I’m not who I convince myself I am, who I want to be, and most importantly who God wants me to be.

I pray daily for my purpose in this life to be revealed. Am I not looking hard enough? Am I not being patient enough? Or am I holding on too tight?

Matthew 11:28-29

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

Everyday I am blessed to wake up to these sweet babies and they are a constant reminder of why I need to let Him.

They don’t know the problems of this world. They are dependent. They need.

Matthew 18:3-4

And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”

It’s amazing what these sweet little souls can teach us.